Marshalls birthday
Max loves his little brother. At first he said he wants his mommy, he wants Tee Tee, but he eventually realized he was ours and was a different person than his cousin Courtland. Max is such a good helper, always kissing his brother, asks for "my Marshall" and wants to see him when he's sleeping, wants to put passi in his mouth, and sings and dances for him. He always gets right in Marshall's face and says " hi marshool". Its absolutely adorable how he is so sweet to him.
Trying to adjust to having two little guys to take care of is a lot of work. Marshall is a great baby ... He grunts and groans constantly and in general is just noisy, he makes noises all through the night while he sleeps so I had to get used to this and realize that he was still sleeping and didn't need me. When he's hungry at night though he doesn't really get to the point of screaming and crying he just grunts and groans and fusses loud until it wakes me up to feed him. He is gassy and has some reflux issues and spits up a lot ... But nursing is going so well and he loves his momma! He has started to smile these last couple weeks and he just gets these huge grins on his face. Toothless grins and all his noises are the best !I love them!
I have been to work a handful of days the past two months, Marshalls two month birthday is tomorrow - and I have been pretty lucky to have gotten lots of quality time with him. Mom has watched him on the days when I worked and I got a new job that starts on Monday that is four days a week ten hours each - 730 to 530. So I will still get a day off every week which was absolutely a requirement for me. I am a little anxious about us all getting adjusted to the new schedule, but the increase in money will be nice and will help us be able to pay off our credit card debt! I have enjoyed all the time home with Marshall as we have gotten to know each other and bond, I thought it only fair that I sent max to daycare most days so Marshall still gets one on one attention just like max did ... But when max is home my attention definitely has to split between them and I am still learning how to do that.
Marshall is a wiggly little worm, he loves to lay on the boppy pillow and just kick and flail his arms like crazy .... He looks like he's running in place and he makes all these noises and faces it's precious! He is growing so so fast and I can't believe how fast it's all happening.
I think the hardest part of being a mom, at least for me, is that I feel like I need to be absorbing everything they are doing, that I dont want to take moments for Granted, don't want to forget the memories we make, the cute new things that happen every day as they change before my eyes. I am scared one day I will look up and these boys will be all grown and I will be sad that this time went so quickly, that so many memories weren't preserved and that I can't relive them again...
I obviously suck at writing in the blog, the best I can do is post stuff on facebook on occasion... But these boys keep me busy and my time to myself is limited and I don't make myself keep up with everything. I guess I have to cut myself some slack and just be proud of myself for what I can do and what I do manage to take care of....life feels like and endless to do list most of the time, projects constantly unfinished !
Max just fell and said I hurt my knee mom, I need a bandaid in his whiniest voice , matt put it on his knee... And he says thank you dad! Ah moments like this are my favorite. This week we went out to dinner and when we were in our subdivision Max is looking out the window and saying thats not my house, not my house, not my house, over and over. When we pull in the driveway he yells yayy! That's Maxs house! We're home!!
You know what else I worry about is that marshall will think that because there's probably less photos and less documented on him that its unfair. Life will only get busier and crazier and I know I'll only be able to keep up with so much.... Marshalls firsts will be important and special and I hope he realizes that i will try my best to make things fair... I worried before he wast here how I could possibly love another child as much as one you already are absolutely head over heels for!? But guess what ... No worries because your heart has plenty of room to love the next kiddo just as much.... My baby Marshall has me smitten. I feel so close to him, I feel so connected with him and I almost always know what he wants when he's talking to me. It's amazing falling in love with him more every day, and the most fulfilling feeling to hold both of them, watch both of them, and know that they are both mine forever!
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